Life is Quite Unfair

This is really just a venting post about my emotions and I don't mean to offend anyone, but this is just how I feel right now. This will be transferred to StillWonders.info or deleted, but yeah. I just need to get my emotions out. By the way, tl; dr.

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So as I've gotten a bit older and met a number of people, I've noticed something. I do not have anything very worthwhile to call my own. Granted, I do have a Nintendo DS Lite, but that's beside the point. All of my friends have really nice things: Wiis, laptops and desktops, PS3s, Xbox 360s, and a number of nice things. What do I have to call my own? Nothing really. This is a bit shallow, but it still quite saddens me that I've been working extremely hard these past few years and have done so much to not benefit just myself, but to help out my parents, my older siblings, and just a number of people. For example, I've been busting my butt off to earn excellent grades, a number of awards, doing a number of chores, and a bunch of other stuff I don't even know. Another thing that kind of saddens me is that being the youngest child in my family of four children, my wants always get pushed to the bottom because of numerous things, despite the fact that my family has a quite cushy salary, the most prevalent of these things lately being college tuition, college loans, dance team payments, and car and house payments which take up more than half of my parents' salary.

I do realize that a lot of these things have more priority than my wants, but it just hurts a little bit every time that what I want always gets pushed aside in favor of something else, and these bunch of little things have piled up over the years. I also know that I should not be doing this just because I want something. I should be doing it to help out my family. And after seeing all of my friends and a bunch of other people (not meaning to point out anyone here) who have a bunch of nice things. And when I go to their houses, I often think, "Why can't I have anything like this?" but I usually just bottle it up as the day goes on. I have realized as I've gotten a bit older is that I need to work a lot in order to get things that I deserve. Like that Coldplay song, "Lost!" goes, "Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserve, no better and no worse." Which is how I feel right now.

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Piplup-Princess on Sep 19, 2009; 12:01 am

Aww, Calvin *hugs*
I do know what you mean, I often thought like that too. Being the only girl in my family (the 3rd youngest, because I have an older brother, my twin brother and my younger brother) my brother's would always get what they wanted.

Mum would never let me get anything that I really wanted, unless i worked extremely hard for it...which in that case i'd just give up and ask her to withdraw some money from my bank account so I'd pay for it, since mum doesn't work but my dad does.

And using an example of mine right now, you know how on twitter I said that I was getting my lip pierced? well, thats after 5 months of begging(kinda begging anyway) to get it done. But as soon as my twin brother asked to get his tongue pierced (he actually just said he was going to get it done this thursday and mum agreed straight away) i thought that was really unfair, so I had a go at my mum. Then i told her i was going to pay for it and she told me I could get it done.(: [also i don't have a job too.. just to let you know]

So, for my piece of advice to you; perhaps see if you could go half and half with your parents or your other siblings, so then it saves you half the money and you get what ya want :D

I hope everything goes well(:

SM on Sep 19, 2009; 7:53 am

Do you know that thing called inequality? Humans are not equal. Some are stronger than others, some have higher social statuses.

When I'm running in PE, the teacher said not to run too fast, run slower, however, I'm still forced to run fast, because of the peer pressure to catch up the people ahead me.
I wanted a Wii and got it because of this peer pressure.
I don't have brothers and sisters, so I have almost no one to compare.
My advice is to be selfish and ruthless, only if other people are selfish. My mother faced a selfish landlord, while my mom has been kind to the landlord.
About siblings, I almost got a (fake) bigger sister, my dad's daughter,

Calvin on Sep 19, 2009; 8:53 am

Hey you guys. Thanks for the comments. I'm still really upset today (which may or may not be related to this.

@PP - Aw, that stinks. Thanks for the advice, but my parents are those kinds of people who never compromise about anything. And also, I do not have a lot of money, seeing as I got all clothes from my relatives. And no present from Mom and Pop. :/

@SM: Haha, yeah. I understand. Life's quite unfair. My PE teacher tells ups that too. xP

Pikachu on Sep 19, 2009; 9:44 am

Um sm, this really has nothing to do with inequality. It's just that he isn't the number one priority to his parents. His parents have tons to deal with.

Believe me. I've been through this type of thing before, even though I'm the oldest kid in my family. It takes for it to settle down.

SM on Sep 19, 2009; 11:20 am

I don't have brothers or sisters, which is both good and bad.
@Pikachu Don't add "Um" beside it, it makes me angry when I'm in a bad mood

Ryan on Sep 20, 2009; 10:29 am

Aww, Calvin. I'm sorry to hear that you are unhappy.

I'm the oldest kid in my family,(well, actually, I'm only a minute older because I'm a twin) but I feel for my little brother sometimes. Not really because he doesn't get what he wants, but lots of people pick on him.

Anyway, you know karma? If you do nice things and let them get their things, you will be repaid for not being cranky about it.

(Did this make any sense?)

Calvin on Sep 20, 2009; 11:40 am

I've been feeling a bit happier, so I'm just going to close this~ :)

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